what is in my mind

I've been trying to write something which sounds like an article but iam getting lil time and when ever i find it, i feel like relaxing or surfing the net not really forcing my mind to work. I've become more or less illiterate. my mind stopped thinking, stopped understanding things of knowledge like my field, business, finance, markets or simple things like logical sense. i feel it is because my mind is not involved in any type of activity other than, feeding my son, taking care of him from day start to day end. sometimes day never ends for me. nights are my nightmare as my son wakesup and cries. i started taking time to calculate simple numbers. i became so dumb that i dnt even remember how much was the grocery bought this week. my attention is somewhere. feels like iam nt active anymore.

i forgot how to write articles, i forgot vocabs, making sentences. i feel sad fr losing what i like.